When? he asked. When does middle age end and old age begin?

"When" he asked, " when does middle age end and old age begin?"

It took awhile to recover from his question.

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

2017-04-05 Day 40

Wednesday

Today I set out with  fruit salad  with nuts and coconut milk. Coffee with coconut milk. Lunch was chip truck chips- tisk tisk! Dinner was an awesome Nicosia salad  with mango dressing-recipe from the Ottawa   Citizen.
and  pure dark chocolate with  pumpkin seeds.

Last night dinner was awesome. . . but tonight is another day and I  at least have recorded today.

I am afraid  that my weight loss will not stick. I have been super sick when I went off plan. . . but the sugar dragon is not tamed. Seeing myself in the dressing room today in the full length mirrors was a wake up call to continue with this in spite of the cravings. The weather will be my ally. The bike will be out soon.

Thursday, March 23, 2017

2017-03-23 Day 27

Thursday

I certainly am on the home stretch. But as with all things, I seldom get the results I set out to achieve within the time I have set aside. Certainly I have learned to cook a few new recipes and have had some ultra tasty meals but for the most part I eat as I have always (within the last 15-20 years) eaten with some adaptations. Large and significant adaptations but  not radical changes.

What has changed is my relationship to food and  my ability to hear what my body is telling me. That surge of energy that I feel is no longer from caffeine - it is more  than the results of a stimulant. What I feel is the result of the high quality nutrition, the fuel, I have given myself. My body is fueled and ready to go. Translating this into action is something I am still working on. I have become very sedentary. I hate the weather. I have felt the cold so severely for the last   several years. I do recognize that that too is the result of an inadequate diet and a lazy lifestyle. From my initial h-angry feelings that caused me to eat three meals a day by 6 o'clock I have slipped back  into my breakfast, a second more casual meal at 2 or 3 o'clock and dinner by 7 -ish.  I have intended to cook this week but slipped into preparing what is available so I don't have to shop a-g-a-i-n.

I am very pleased with myself  because in spite of potentially setting myself up for failure I have adapted and stayed within the rules. Going forward I hope to embrace more of the program and reap more of the rewards. Over recent years I have relearned to be kind and generous to myself. I have learned to have an attitude of abundance allowing myself to enjoy the time and comforts of my status as an empty-nester. I have accepted the luxury of pedicures and a good haircut and quality cosmetics and care products. What I have not done is allow myself to luxuriate in an abundance of quality food. While I would think nothing of buying a roast I did not eat for however many dollars and ultimately wasting some of it (one man will only eat so much of the same thing)  I felt a sense of decadent indulgence when I bought a small container of $11 shrimp for no purpose other than to add to my breakfast. I had been more inclined to cook low budget meals that I didn't enjoy  and fully consume neutralizing my revulsion with crackers, toast and butter. I was more likely to dole out a quarter or half an avocado that to eat a whole one and on and on.  I frolicked in an abundance of good food but was not effectively consuming it.

So on to Thursday. . . I still had not been to the grocery store and it was a busy day for me.

Ken made potatoes and eggs. He kindly cooked them in olive oil for me. Afterwards he told me He had done 6 eggs and three potatoes. I know I never get half the eggs :) but chances are I had half the potatoes by the time the morning was done as I noshed on the remainders while cleaning the kitchen.

I drank coffee midmorning with coconut milk - naturally!

The day flew by as I was super busy and by 2:30 I realized I was ravenous and stopped for a bit. With nothing suitable in the cupboards I ended up with a "fruitbowl"  a few canned peaches, almond butter a sprinkle of raisins, coconut and coconut milk with a dash of cinnamon to fool the old tastebuds.

Dinner came late after a meeting and the vegetarian in me could not face the ribs that Mr. Me was raving about- I am just not there on the whole meat on the bone thing... it's a life long aversion.

I felt a sense of panic but reached for the eggs. I added a little of my old friend coconut milk- solid from the refrig to give a boost to the last of the nasty eggs we had (buying eggs is a shared responsibility and the young man doesn't have the money to buy good eggs) I sauted the last of the bok- choy and faked room temperature with  some precooked frozen shrimp warmed slightly in the microwave. Not bad!

I added a couple more slices of peaches to a bowl doused with coconut flakes and milk- no nuts this time and called it a meal.

2017-03-22 Day 25

Wednesday

Hot lemon water

Garlic and onion sauteed zoodles for breakfast with 2 eggs scrambled all sauteed in butter oil

Coffee with coconut milk

Clementine and pecans

Chopped plum tomatoes sauteed in  coconut oil  with baby bok choy, pan deglazed with water and a titch of almond flour- spiced with garlic and onion powder and a sprinkle of pecans served with precooked shrimps - yummmmmy!

Canned peaches in unsweetened fruit syrup with a few pecans and coconut cream

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

2017-03-21 Day 23

Today

2 eggs scrambled with onions in butter oil seared cherry tomatoes, hot lemon water

Coffee with coconut milk

Cocktail shrimp with lemon and dill, salad greens with  oil and vinegar, clementine

Stir fry-with chicken.  Cabbage, bok-choy, celery, mushrooms, onions and cauliflower rice.

Fruit bowl with almond butter, pecans, coconut and coconut milk.

Yesterday was a browse day.

We had beautiful homemade curried squash soup- thanks Karen! Left over green salad and potato/egg salad, chicken thighs with apples and carrots left over

Fruit bowl with almond butter, pecans, coconut and coconut milk.

I think lunch was pecans and an orange... and almond butter with strawberries.
Rooibus and coconut milk

Breakfast was potato salad  and strawberries it felt like a picnic.
There could have been more food I just forget.


I do think I have more energy. I need to move because I notice that I need to get going or the good feeling fades. I have more interest in eating and am enjoying cooking things that appeal to me. Except for all the dish washing - ugh! I hope the avocados are ripe tomorrow.



2017-03-22 Day 24

Tuesday

2 eggs scrambled with a potato in coconut oil

1/2 avocado with lemon juice  pepper and a can of tuna

yam medallions, grilled asparagus, shrimp with lemon and dill. green salad

nut parfait with coconut cream

My flat belly is no longer flat. On the other hand I have good energy. Onward!
I walked to the drug store, Falcon and home. The to south keys this evening-bus home-YES!!

Saturday, March 18, 2017

2017-03-18 Day 21

Saturday

I'll need to work backwards but let's start with what I know and can remember

Breakfast chicken recipe- thighs, apple, cabbage, carrot and cashews. 2 eggs scrambled. Hot water and lemon, mint tea

mint tea
macademia nuts
clementine
rooibus coco chai  with coconut milk

Potato salad and roasted chicken

Sundae- raisins, blueberries, almond butter, coconut, pecans,strawberries and coconut milk with cinnamon.


Yesterday Day 20

My plan was to make a recipe from the book but I was short ingredients as they had been bought but folded into other meals over the last several days.

I had chickens thighs and cooked them,
I needed pecans, I subbed cashews,
I needed yams I used carrots and I needed spinach and used cabbage. The apple that was required was used. I deglazed the pan with balsamic vinegar and bone broth and baked it for 10 minutes at 400 F while  asparagus brushed with olive oil baked.

prior to that I cannot recall so much . I was nauseated and missed lunch and I believe there was an apple with almond  butter

Breakfast was eggs and potatoes with a ground pork patty.

Thursday Day 19
Was an odd day. I broke my fast with with a 2 ounce swig of orange juice. I had tea- can't recall Ken cooked me egg warmed mashed taters. I had a date and  almond roll and tea later in the day. I felt nausea whenever I thought of food.

Wednesday Day 18.

Bangers and mash from the book, I mashed potatoes and yams but otherwise except for extra cooking time I followed the recipe otherwise. There was pumpkin seeds and strawberries with the last of the pineapple for afters.   I recall coffee and coconut milk,sometime during the afternoon.

Breakfast was eggs and mushrooms. I snacked on salted toasted almonds  before bed.